Spiritual Philosophy: My Musings

Thank you and goodbye

2006-05-12T07:08:00.000-07:00

I have decided to close out this blog as it has served its purpose for me. It is has been a wonderful method of expressing myself and feeling the freedom to do so. This has been a gift I gave myself.

The Institute of Metaphysical Studies is beginning another course of studies and so my mind is going to be engaged and I intend to expand into another level of consciousness.
Should anyone wish to contact me regarding blog posts, I can be reached at Raewyn7@yahoo.com or through www.kathyoddenino.com under life mosaics.
Thank you and goodbye.
Raewyn

neural depoarization: a case history

2006-04-27T05:37:00.000-07:00

I have been asked to give some explanation/examples of Neural Depolarization, so I have gone back into my notes and found this account written several years ago. I suggest to those who wish to know more of the wonderful healing of NDP, to log onto www.whatisNDP.com and you can get an interview and explanation with the originator of this technique. It is worth the effort!

Rae's account: Dale came to me with a rigid and painful neck. She had had neck surgery about 17 years ago and the site continued to be painful. I had barely begun to touch the nerve points when I could feel the depolarization beginning. It felt like electrical shocks..a snapping feel to them. It was at this point that Dale (a massage therapist) asked me if I was wearing a watch because she could hear a loud ticking sound. I was not. The sound that she was hearing was the neuroma depolarizing. Because the neuroma was so close to the spine, she was hearing the nerves depolarize internally through the spinal fluid. When I felt the nerves balance, I moved on. I came to the surgical site and began to focus on that area. I immediately had an image of a bunch of live wires tangled up and firing off rapidly; accompanying this visual was a chemical smell, tinged with burning. I was also conscious that Dale was in pain ...way beyond the point of discomfort. At this point my "visual image" changed to "seeing" this bunch of nerves pulling apart and the knot dissipating...along with the pain. I was surprised by the pain that Dale experienced during this session. Kathy explained to me that the trauma had been man-made (surgical). This made perfect sense to me. Physically, the lump on her neck had decreased in size and her range of motion was dramatically improved. I repeated the work for 3 consecutive weeks, each time removing another neuroma and/or continuing to decrease the existing one. There have been 6 sessions over a 3-month period and the work is holding. I have given a brief description of what transpired. Dale's account: I had gone to see Rae with my usual stiff neck and back. My injuries were from a pedestrian accident 17 years ago where I had broken several vertebrae. I had a cervical fusion at C3-4-5. Since the surgery I have had a huge knot in the right side of my neck. It is my "weak link," flaring up more than usual when I'm under stress. I was actually hoping for Rae's strong elbow up my back when I arrived for my appointment, but she started doing the Neural Depolarization. I knew, intuitively, that this is what my body needed, so I didn't say anything. Shortly after Rae placed her fingers at my neck I experienced what sounded like loud ticking. Sort of like two metal rods being clicked together, but under water. It was quite loud, and the ticking got faster and faster. I asked Rae about it, thinking she had a watch on. She didn't. It was so loud to me that I thought she must be able to hear it. I had a tremendous amount of heat coming from the area and the sensation that something was burning. Before I could tell her this, Rae commented that she could smell burning. After a while, the ticking started to slow down and eventually stopped. Rae moved down each vertebra from there, and at each site the ticking would begin again. At some sites the ticking was louder and faster than others. When Rae got to the surgical site, I felt such burning and pain that I was not sure I could tolerate it. I knew she was only barely touching me, and yet I felt like I had knives in my neck. The ticking was really firing now, and I had a vision of live wires that were all knotted up, thrashing around, trying to untangle. I spoke to Rae about it, and she had the same vision that I had. The vision of thrashing continued, and I wanted to ride it out, even though the pain was almost unbearable. After quite a while, I sensed that the "wires" had untangled, and the relief was tremendous. Rae continued to do the depolarization down my back. The worst spot of all was at my 7th cervical vertebra, a place where I had never been conscious of pain. I felt much discomfort and burning there, but I don't remember any sounds. Eventually, the pain stopped. When we were finished, we compared notes. We had both had the same visions and senses throughout the treatment. I was amazed. Unbelievably, the knot had diminished in size to almost nothing. This knot had been there for 17 years! I immediately signed up for some more treatments. When I was backing up my car, I could actually see behind me. I usually have to turn my entire body. I was impressed, to say the least. I have had several more treatments. The ticking sounded like it was under less water each time. The last time I went (last week), I didn't hear any ticking at all. My neck isn't 100%, but I know something huge happened during those treatments. I feel that if I could continue to get treated once a week for a few months it would benefit me tremendously.

all of life is choice

2006-04-22T07:05:00.000-07:00

I was reading about the freedom of will, choice and intention and how ‘allowing people to use them’ is living equality. Living equality is living love. This is not a direct quote of course, I make note here because the words/meaning struck me in a different way. I was thinking about my brother and how he was using his choice and freedom the Be…(blog on ‘healing vision’) and just because his choices and behaviours were not my choices, does not make them ‘good or bad’ or ‘right or wrong’….it just makes the choices his. Just as my choices are mine and mine alone and I accept full responsibility for them. This is what makes our lives unique. We all have the same lessons to learn; it is our choices of experience to learn that enhances our uniqueness.

How does ‘forgiveness’ enter into this picture? I feel it is about me ‘forgiving’ myself for judging him, because while I am judging him, I am not loving self or him (where love is thin, faults are many) and at the same time, I am denying the value of love and family. This puts a entirely new slant on ‘All of life is Choice’….It is a perfect thing for me to read and garner a broader understanding of the meaning of internal vs. external thinking….thereby opening to a deeper degree of love and equality and for this I am excited to recognize and feel. This is how I begin my day. It is indeed some kind of wonderful….

prophetic ability...interupted.

2006-04-21T08:18:00.000-07:00

I was watching a documentary on Edgar Cacye last night and him saying that everyone has the same 'prophetic' ability, it just has to be a priority and an intention to release fear beliefs so the mind can flow and be the universal medium of All that Is. I imagine that this is a place everyone wants to get to within their mind. Perhaps one of the first steps towards this state, is in knowing/having an awareness that our every thought creates an energy stream that affects the universal system and this includes earth and nature (plant/human/animal); is the beginning ...and with this awareness we can build on it and grow further into our soul and spirit …the truth of “I Am”…
I was on a stream of consciousness flow there when I got interrupted….the moment has passed. I have sat here for a few minutes trying to find the stream's end and pick it up and continue. As I said…the moment has passed. Until I get inspired to write again….have a good morning.

becoming more conscious

2006-03-30T09:54:00.000-08:00

It has been a good week in all ways for me. I have been trying to be more conscious of living my love and sharing it with others. I am making a more conscious effort to communicate…beginning internally with what I am thinking and feeling and then reflecting as energy, words, behaviour to others and the universe. I keep thinking of the mind being the universal medium and therefore I reflect whatever is going on within me. There is no exception to this. It is what it is. It is quite something to realize that my every thought is impacting the universe…and as nothing is separate, these thoughts are then having an influence upon the earth, nature and people ….All that Is, is being influenced. I then have to examine whether my thoughts are coming from a mind of fear or from a mind of love. This is my responsibility to discover. My mind is quite incredulous as it attempts to wrap itself around this thought that every thought has impact on everything. EVERY THING.

In my choice and intention to be mindfully open and loving and living and sharing my freedom of love and knowledge, I am getting more of an idea of how I am creating my reality. I am seeing this open loving of giving and a receiving as a universal pulse of harmony and rhythm. The only thing that can disrupt this balance is the fear beliefs that become like the proverbial spanner in the works and everything grinds to a horrible halt. This shocks the mind and stops all forward growth and movement. It is an uncomfortable space to be in. There in lies the gift. In choosing to pick up the tools that I have learned from studying with Kathy Oddenino (http://www.kathyoddenino.com/) I can actively change the pattern of my thoughts from a negative habitual pattern to a positive pattern. It is a matter of creating new neuronal pathways to use and here in lies the excitement of learning as the change and shift is felt on a cellular level. As I detect a thread of negative energy and track it back to early childhood behaviour I have a choice. Once I become aware of a behaviour and/or language that is negative, then I can change. This is my gift of love. I am indeed grateful.

a rose is a rose, is a rose...perhaps

2006-01-31T06:47:00.000-08:00

Gertrude Stein wrote, a rose is a rose, is a rose. On its own it is a rose but when experiences through all senses it becomes so much more. It was a connecting thought to hearing an off-hand remark about a rose not having a life until its scent was experienced….I have thought about this and relating it to my emotional response to the sensory giving and receiving/perceiving of the camellia bloom I had in my garden. The bloom was perfection and the scent was subtly heady. It filled me with tears with its beauty. It was through my sensory response that I was able to recognize and relate to the camellia as life. It was through the vibrational patterns from the DNA within the flower that I sensed and responded to the beauty of the bloom/myself/ life. So therefore the camellia had life, but until I became conscious of it, it did not exist fully within mine. It is through the spiritual senses that awareness occurs. Until I become aware and can have or find a relationship, there is no life. This is how change comes about….to go from unawareness of bloom, to awareness of bloom as separate from self, to relating to beauty of life/self and seeing reflection of same in bloom as nothing is separate. This is evolution of the mind or expanding awareness if you wish. I have the memory of scripture...something along the lines of…Spirit is everywhere …therefore, I see myself as part of All that Is. This is the loving emotional response I had to feeling the beauty of the bloom. I saw my reflection and felt love!

obesity and our economy

2006-01-23T08:32:00.000-08:00

I have been thinking about obesity and as my mind began to examine it, I discovered that this country is ‘dependant’ upon people being fat. It actually behooves this economy to have people overweight/over fat. Obesity feeds the medical systems and the drug systems and the insurance companies and basically feeds fear. This is the opposite of our spiritual design. (For more information on “Intelligent Design” check out
http://spiritualphilosophy.blogspot.com/)

This all begins before birth of child because the parents are eating the compromised foods to begin with so that the child in uteri is also being fed these toxic chemicals. I use the phase ‘toxic chemicals’ with deliberation. The pesticides and preservatives and dyes (to name but a few) that are placed in our food source are foreign to our chemical design. This does not include all the chemicals that are being washed into our water supply from run offs of roadway for example. All the salt that is placed on the road to melt the ice is altering the PH of the streams, not to mention the mixture of various liquids that come from vehicles. Inside our homes when we flush the toilets the water takes the chemical mixture to a ‘treatment’ plant where it is supposedly ‘cleansed’ with more toxic chemicals and recycled. And so the cycle continues. Perhaps we are drinking the prozac and antibiotics of neighbours to add to the toxic mix of the foods we are eating; and then the air we are breathing has to be examined as well. People who were exposed to the poisoned air from the 911 disaster are now dying from lung disease. There is a direct correlation of cause and effect here. The difference is quality and quantity. We breathe the same poisons, just in smaller doses so the effect takes longer to show up.

What does all this have to do with obesity and our economy? Well, to my mind, when we are giving our body the chemicals it requires to function (clean air, clean water and clean organically raised/produced foods) then our body will not be out of balance (read: too fat or too thin) and a lot of health issues can be avoided. Obesity brings with it: higher blood pressure, cholesterol imbalance, heart disease, basically organ failure, to name just a few. This is just the physical component. When we are not giving our body the correct nutrients, our mind does not work as well nor can the emotional/sensory self flourish. So what this spawns is an entire culture of industries catering to inflating their own pockets on the expanding waistlines of the American public.

just a few thoughts...

2006-01-20T17:37:00.000-08:00

I have been putting together a draft for a brochure to describe and define my work. In describing spiritual philosophy, neural depolarization™ and nutrition and their relationship with each other is cyclical; I have been challenged to keep the text to minimum words and still have meaning and flow to it. If these were linear, physical processes then I could have just put bullets and stated ‘facts’. Anyway, this is what I have been working on of late. I have been putting my intentions (thoughts) into print (physical) and possibly the greatest benefit of doing this project is that I end up with a plan of what I want to create.

In fossicking through the world wide web looking for a symbol of a spiral pattern of energy I came across this site www.kiwizone.org and became enamored with this John Wattie’s photography. He does some wonderful innovative work…at least I feel it is innovative and I have not come across anything similar anywhere I have looked…so please do check it out. He very kindly has given me permission to use the stereoscopic sea shell on my brochure. It is a beautiful view on the pattern of nature. A sea shell that has been x-rayed and this has given it a wonderfully 3-D feel. A lot of health related practitioners use the nautilus as a symbol for their work. I have chosen not to for many reasons: over use perhaps is one reason. I also feel that it does not adequately depict the 3 dimensionality of us which is the essence of spiritual philosophy/of us.

These feel like two thoughts yet they are connected in the work I have been doing. I just wanted to share this new site and what I am doing. Take care and… oh, do check out the updated, revamped www.kathyoddeninoims.com it is fun to roam through it and to read and listen and learn. Happy roaming.

a light heart...

2005-12-29T11:03:00.000-08:00

Good morning new day! And this is exactly how I am feeling about my life and living this love and teaching and sharing it. It is all good.
Yesterday as I was walking around the track at the local community college, a couple walking in front of me, each had a little ‘daxie’ on a leash…and I had an immediate déjà vu sensation. What is this? I was thinking the feeling was something I had dreamed of a while ago and then I think that ‘all is now’ so what is the sensation showing me?...or rather, what am I showing myself? I have a sense certainty that I am on the most appropriate path (figuratively speaking), for me at this moment in time. I have just opened “Sharing. Self discovery in relationships” by Kathy Oddenino, and on at page 83 lo and behold, there is reference to this déjà vu as “soul and spirit energy this is called remembering.” Remembering, recognizing, awakening to the energy of self…it is about expansion of energy as it merges. It is about acceptance and acknowledging energy within. This just confirms my feeling of being on the appropriate path of integration and acknowledging my soul & spirit energy. It is in this integration of self that the healing occurs.

I did have a light heart yesterday and have awoken this morning with a lighter heart still. I look ahead at the next year and know I want to expand this loving feeling and share it with others. I want to share this knowledge of spiritual philosophy with others so they to may heal.
I look back over this past year and I am pleasantly amazed at how much has changed and how quickly the year past. The year was one of change for me and with this change I feel my internal growth. I have opened myself to new people in my life and this continues to be a delight as friendships deepen and my life becomes all the richer for having these wonderful people around me. I have my extended physical family and far away (geographically speaking) friends and feel the love between all flowing deeper and stronger. I am excited to be going to New Zealand for the month of February to spend time with them all.

Life is indeed good! 2006 approaches and I am ready to move into it and continue the expansion of my heart and mind and share it with family and friends and new friends I have not yet met up with. My mind is opening and my heart is light.

a time of sharing and reflection

2005-12-08T05:27:00.000-08:00

It is ‘holiday time’! For me, it is the ending of one year and the beginning of another, rather like the cycle of expression of birth/life/death/birth again. I find this time of the year a time of sharing with my loved ones as well as a period for reflection; a time to go inwards, like nature. It is a time to look back at what has been to examine the sadness and the joys. It is as time to think about what I want to create. I see the incoming New Year as being ripe with promise. This time of the year is also an opportunity to be with family and friends and to love and appreciate the supporting role they are playing in our life. It is a time of reflection and of cutting old ties. These ‘’ties” can be old beliefs or anything externally that is not working for us. If we are happy and healthy (a normal state to be in) then we can ask ourself how to enhance life. If this is not how we are feeling then it behooves us to change. Life is all about choices and relationships and how all relates to us internally and this becomes a reflection of sharing our heart and mind…our life; we are the sum total of our relationship. This is the art of loving and living to the fullest.

To be able to share various relationship/activities and what has been gained from them is to focus on what has been learned rather than focusing on any ‘drama’ of events and this is so incredibly freeing. I feel fortunate to have reached a place in my mind where I can look at myself in the mirror and not flinch in judgement at what I have created in this life. This has not always been the case. There is nothing quite like sexuality to bring up judgement and this is usually associated with the feeling of shame. What is the belief behind such trauma? I use the word ‘trauma’ with deliberation for anytime there is judgement/negativity, there is not love (where love is thin, faults are many) and this is traumatic for our spirit consciousness. For me I found that the granddaddy belief of ‘Original Sin’ lurking. Now, I was not consciously taught this belief in this life time yet it had shown up in subtle and not so subtle ways through my thoughts, in my language and in my actions (all based in fear/inequality/untruth to my design as a dual soul and spirit consciousness). I had brought it with me into this lifetime as memory and I feel it (this belief) is a large part of the collective consciousness as it is so pervasive in this society. Well, I write ‘this society’ and yet I have felt it and seen it acted out throughout all over the world, so it is not peculiar to this country or to just me. Sadly, I feel it is a human condition.

This old religious belief has permeated every facet of humanity it seems. How can we have equality/love/truth (the corner stones of the ethical values of spirit) between our male and female genders when there is no equality between our internal male and female consciousness? It cannot be done. Even the referencing of the word ‘sin’ is a belief in right/wrong, good/bad, and these lead to reward and punishment. All of these tie back into belief in an external God to save, or Jesus as saviour. We have to save ourself by coming out of the darkness of our fear beliefs and accepting personal responsibility to be love. We have to change our belief structure that makes up our ego shell or cosmic egg as some call it. I believe this is referred to in scripture as ‘rending the veil’. To do this we have to be willing to look at ourself and see the beauty of who we are. We have to look internally to understand who we are and then we can understand why we have made the choices we have made. We look with love to find understanding and then feel compassion for all we have done to learn our soul lessons. We have to change the way we think and this takes courage and strength to look honestly at ourself and these are some of the ethical values required to shift our consciousness from the external focus of fear to the internal focus of love. This is the gift we give ourselves and reflect to our family and friends. This is the gift of love. Happy holidays to all.

the unexamined life is not worth living

2005-12-06T07:48:00.000-08:00

I was reading “The Journey Home” by Kathy Oddenino the other evening and on page 66 I came across these sentences that got me thinking on my life.
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“Denying that we have any beliefs within our mind is an indication of our fear energy of concealment. Our fear of revealment is the energy of our fear of failure. If we think that by revealing our experiences we will be judged by others it is because we are using our immature soul energy to judge ourself.”

These couple of lines had me thinking about my own mind. I am looking to see if I am open to sharing my experiences or am I selective in what I share? I feel I am open and willing to share whatever I have learned and sharing in this manner to whomever wishes to read my blog is a very freeing experience. If I am consciously concealing an experience, I will feel the active suppression; thus a fear of revealing to others is based solely on my own judgement of self and my experiences. This is always a good clue that a fear belief is lurking. The fun is to happily fossick through thoughts and feelings and find the belief that is behind the concealment/discomfort.

I think about the discomfort I experienced all those years ago when I told my mother about my experiences with bisexuality. I think of how much I have learned from the relationships I have had, and the learning curve continues to unfold as I continue looking back on all relationships dealing with sexuality as this seems to be where the steepest learning curves appear for me. Perhaps this is the case for most people. I have found for me that nothing gets ancient religious beliefs to the fore quicker than when sex is introduced into a relationship. What do I mean by this? Many decades ago I created a homosexual experience and in the process I learned to love the physical image of self. I also found that judgment of self and others increased a thousand fold and because of it I felt the separation and isolation. I was not open in sharing my relationship which effectively closed out my family because of my fear of being judged, rejected and then abandoned by them and I was not willing to ‘risk’ this. Of course I was already judging myself and in the process had rejected and separated myself from my family and friends. Internally (we are reflective beings) I was rejecting and abandoning my own female loving emotions and spirit senses which then intensified the feelings of ‘aloneness’ within me. It has been a brilliant design.

I am very appreciative of all I learned from it. It was a physical lesson rather than a spiritual lesson for me. The spiritual lesson has been to see how I was living the untruth of my design and I say that not as a judgement of right/wrong or good/bad but as my learning of how I had been living my inequality, untruth and fear internally. I also think of the relationships I have had with some beautiful men and am now able to see how I lived my inequality with them as I lived my own internal inequality and reflected this into my relationships. The difference is that I now see the male as complimentary rather than competition. My fear (unconscious and subconscious to my intellect) was controlling me. This resulted in my being internally controlling of my loving emotions and sensory responses. This is the competition between the ego and the loving emotions that I unconsciously reflected outwards. As I was not able to fully love myself I could not love another for how could I give what I did not have? Sex is not love.

I feel every relationship is ultimately about learning to love self, therefore there is no right or wrong or good or bad. Life is about choices and relationships…everything is relativeJ. For me to deny any of my life experiences is to hang onto judgment and deny my choices. This very action reinforces the “I know it all” belief and slams the mind shut…well, keeps the mind from opening is more like it. This denial is another way of refusing to accept personal responsibility for my thoughts, my words and my actions. It is a perfect way to remain stuck and be uncomfortable. This is failure. It is failing to look at oneself with love and to evolve as a consciousness. It is failure to think and to change. I think of Socrates who is attributed with saying: “The unexamined life is not worth living.” How profound these words are!

What is time?

2005-11-26T11:39:00.000-08:00

What is time?...to put our hope in ‘time’ is to live for the future and ignore the present. Time does not solve any thing. All it does is measure the distance between ‘events’. We reference ‘time’ as being the healer and we have songs dedicated to this theme such as Eva Cassidy’s ‘Time is the healer’. There is only the here and the now and this takes concentration/focus of the mind. To me, being in the ‘here and now’ is to come to my senses. I look at that sentence and realize that our senses are how we take in our world and this information is filtered through our mind to be interpreted. From here our mind determines how we feel and what emotions we are using. Coming to our senses is really about coming home (awaken to) our internal spirit consciousness.

I think of the ‘time’ it took me to fully rebalance after my mother’s transition and it tallies almost 2 years. So what was I measuring with this time? It is space between the emotional shock of my mother’s physical absence and the rebalancing within my mind and heart. I am measuring the healing time it has taken me to rebalance, thus time is the healer. What have I been doing? The shock to my heart and mind seemed to have ‘suspended time’ in that my mind did not move very quickly, thereby giving the illusion of ‘time being the healer’. This is also how we heal our mind/memories. When our mind is fully integrated (male mind, female loving emotions and spirit senses) there is total healing on every level/every life experience from the beginning of life. I am not just speaking of physical healing but of emotional and mental energies (memories) thereby opening our minds to all memory and all lessons. This is our healing. This is when All becomes Now.

Yogi’s speak of silencing the mind which I interpret as calming the ego-chatter and then allowing the mind to communicate in cyclic compassionate language, symbols, and sounds with intellectual, emotional and sensory awareness and understanding. This is a close definition of consciousness. When this occurs, there is no past or future as All is Now! Time is All we have and this is solely determined by where our mind is focused and to be conscious of our season of change. There is a time for every season and this is all about change and growth and what we want to do, how we want to think and to be and what emotions we wish to use. This is the evolution of our mind. This is an example of the Intelligent Design living through its Divine Idea of constant and consistent change.

Ps…should you want to learn what the Intelligent Design is and how it relates to the Divine Idea, and thus to you, I suggest you check into
www.kathyoddenino.com and listen to some of her discussions which Kathy freely and generously offers to us.
I have enjoyed chatting here this afternoon and just going with this stream of consciousness. I am now off to enjoy pumpkin pie with dear friends.

Reflecting on "i am perfect just the way i am"

2005-11-22T15:45:00.000-08:00

“I am perfect just the way I am”. I over heard this when I was in a store the other day and I began to think what it means. My first thought was ‘how limiting’. When viewed from an external viewpoint, this thought is extremely effective in halting any search to understand self and I am sharply reminded of Socrates quote, “The unexamined life is not worth living”. To hold the belief of being ‘perfect just the way I am’ …suggests to me, that a destination has been achieved. This shuts the door to any change and evolution of the soul mind.

From an internal perspective we see ourself in the light of spirit – to view self with a loving eye and the knowing of truth of who we are as a quadrivium- is to have an understanding of truth and love and equality and to live from this open mind focus. This is the ‘perfection’ of living our integrated Conscious mind and understanding our own energy of constant and consistent change.

In a seminar, Kathy Oddenino (www.kathyoddenino.com) reminded us that the thinking mind is the only part of our design that has to grow and that it is the mind that has to learn to think. To expand the thinking mind to stretch into the loving emotional self and the sensory self is how we shift our consciousness from an external fear perspective to an internal love perspective is our path of growth. “We are, first and foremost, energy that creates matter.” (K.O) to tread this path we have to think. Think = growth and change. The first level of consciousness is awareness and the bridge to understanding is knowledge.

I wrote these notes from Kathy’s lecture and they are resonating within me. I share them with you this morning as I feel the profundity of Kathy’s words. I feel privileged to have the opportunity to hear this wonderful spiritual philosopher gracefully sharing her wisdom. It is life changing. So if any of you have the opportunity to hear Kathy speak, please take and gift your soul mind a true gift.

ps...you may wish to watch/listen to Kathy on video stream ...go to her web site. It will be worth the effort!

languae...a sensory experience

2005-11-19T06:48:00.000-08:00

I was feeling the comfort and the calm within me the other day when speaking to an old client. My words, feeling the vowels leave my mouth and forming sentences, having a form, structure, organization and discipline - all filters though the perception of both of us. What I say is as important as what I do not say - the vowels I chose to use and those I chose not to use - all parts of language, both internal and external...then there is the eternal... this would have an impact with language as nothing is separated.

This leads me to the language of silence - where “information” may not be received as vowels or consonants and structured sentences, but as symbols, sounds, or some or all senses, and they are all looped together with an internal deep knowing . In the silence I often have ‘conversations’ with people and with nature. This provides a deep comfort for me. Feeling the vibration of the earth as I stood on top of a mountain in Tahoe and sensing its ‘sound’ moved me and touched my heart, my essence. Sensing when my plants ‘want’ to be moved or watered is an example… or when I sensed my mother wanted to talk or was not feeling well. The wonderment of calling and have her say she was just thinking about me and our comfort in ‘knowing’ we can ‘reach’ each other...this telepathy is another form of language and one that I am becoming more and more in touch with, the more I understand and balance myself, the more open I am to my sensing abilities.

Then there is the other side of silent language, when “silent treatment” is issued as a form of punishment. It is a withdrawing of ‘love’ and is one of the most painful experiences I have felt. It effectively, painfully, removes any obvious way of reaching, of communicating, of coming to any understanding. I have experiences the hardness and the loudness of the silence and the feeling of the rejection and sense of being separated. How different the senses respond between these two ‘languages’. How differently they feel. This is such a clear view of how fears “silence” the loving language of soul and spirit.

I have, and still do, spend a lot of time using the language of letters and cards to friends and family. I find the physical act of selecting (the ‘right’ fountain pen, nib, ink colour, the weight of the pen, the paper or card) writing material as important as the words. I delight in this simple pleasure. How the recipient receives these gifts is up to them. My gift in sending a little of me in a physical way, and in experiencing the moment of putting it all together; this is my joy. It is three dimensional.

A Healing Vision

2005-11-12T08:14:00.000-08:00

I have been thinking about my older brother of late and the role he has played in my life. I grew up between two brothers with 3.5 years between us all. The closeness in age and family dynamics added to the sense of unity and loving support. I have been blessed with this tight knit family (and extended family) to begin my life. I had this wonderful sense of security of love that a family provides. On page 119 of Sharing: Self Discover in relationships, by Kathy Oddenino, I came across these two quotes:

“Know that you have chosen to live this life together, to learn and grow together, and that the lesson, the ultimate lesson of creation is unconditional love.”

and

“Your immediate family is there to be your safety net, because on a soul and spirit basis you have been around with them thousands and thousands of times before.”

This sense of familiarity and safety was indeed felt by me.

My immediate family is all physically gone and I continue to learn and expand my internal sense of comfort with their passing from my present life. I am remembering the strength and courage displayed by my mother as we discussed my older brother’s absence. Was he alive or was he dead? This was always the question. He had sailed off in his boat many years before and we had not been able to trace him. After 9 years of silence, of not being able to find him, together we agreed to do a legal death on him. I remember the day vividly.

Mum had not been feeling well and we had been going over her Will. I had asked her if she would consider changing the way she had written it, because as it stood, I would not be able to bring her estate to closure until my brother was located. I left it up to her on how she wanted to do it. Nothing was really going smoothly. I recall how angry I had felt. Everything felt stuck.

I went to the beach and on the way I had a vivid image/vision of 3 pieces of wood fixed firmly in a triangle, so that the entire piece moved as one. I was so anger at my brother that I mentally brushed it aside. I walked along the beach and gave full reign to my anger. I was angry at my brother’s silence…of his not communicating with the family. There was no ranker or dissension. So, to my mind, there was no reason to just ‘disappear’ from the family. I had walked…well, more like stormed along about a 100 meters when I had the thought that on a soul and spirit level, the family offers unconditional love. This thought stopped me in mid step and so I asked what his gift to me was. I was startled and a little overcome with the overwhelming rush of softening response within me. Immediately I saw how he has helped me in learning another view of unconditional love by realizing I had no control over his soul’s agenda…anymore than he had over my life and how I wished to live it. I saw in that split second how I was reflecting my own self control , of my sense of rejection and abandonment (of my internal dual soul and spirit) externally. My brother had become my lighten rod for my own internal discomfort. I also saw that with him being away from the family, Mum and I became a lot closer and it opened up an avenue for discussions that may not have otherwise been available. In his removal from the family unit, my sense of competition and jealousy (unconscious) was put aside enough for me to see that my mother loved all of us equally.
There were so many levels of love and images that I write only a few here. Suffice to say, it was a powerful moment for me, and continued to be.

On my return from the beach I felt an expanding softening within me and warmth around my heart and once again the image appeared in vivid form. It was the same 3 pieces of wood, with the difference being that instead of being a fixed structure, they were joined by string. Showing me that the three of us were eternally connected and free to move independently of each other.

When I got back to the house, I could feel a large ‘space’ open between the three of us. My releasing of the anger and resentment towards him (towards myself), had freed us all. The solicitor was called and a date and time fixed to makes changes to mother’s Will. The details flowed and changes were made without fuss and bother. I felt a tremendous surge of compassion for all of us in this shared experience. In my mother, I saw and felt her incredible inner strength and courage as she signed the document declaring her eldest son dead. She had lived the death of two sons and a husband. She lived the power of love. “Releasing judgement creates the positive energy of love that will heal your mind and body”. Page 119, Sharing: Self Discovery in relationships. By Kathy Oddenino. What a gift this knowledge is to me!

a dog's gift to love and learning

2005-11-10T10:51:00.000-08:00

My neighbour’s dog has chosen to spend time with me and is in the process of training me. She is proving to be a delightful companion. It has got me thinking about energy and animals and why they choose to be around different people. This is a vast subject so I have narrowed it to just this dog and me and what she is teaching me about myself. I am learning about spontaneity, freedom, unconditional love, loyalty and laughter to name just a few. Anyone who has ever had a dog in their life will possibly relate to my learning curve.

I took Samantha for a walk the other day and had an ‘aha’ within my mind about control and its opposite of freedom. I had the leash and she has been obviously trained to go on a leash so it makes it an easy thing to go for a walk with her. What I had come to notice was that this dog is not going to be controlled by anyone but she will cooperate beautifully and willingly when asked. If I reigned in the leash and really had her tight against me, she pull and it became a tug of wills and a work out rather than a comfortable fun walk. She will cope with this short lead for a while and then she just lies down. When this happened I knew exactly why she did this….what else could she do? By allowing her to have the space and freedom to ‘do her thing’ of sniffing and marking her spot and generally enjoying her surroundings, she did not fight against me, but rather, was very co-operative, communicative and companionable and it made for a delightful walk for both of us. This is not to say that Samantha dictates my time by any means…should I chose to jog, she is right there with me until I elect to stop…again, showing me the beauty of co-operation and communication… and compassion to.

She comes and goes at will. Samantha is very independent. I gave her a stuffed toy that I bought for 25cents and took great delight in watching her obvious pleasure and excitement as she tore around the house several times and then settled down to clean every part of it. I felt a lot of warm fuzzies go through me at the sight. Then she went off (I am assuming to her home) with the toy and I never saw it from that moment on. I felt a little miffed. This was teaching me about unconditional love. I offered this gift to this creature and she gifted me with a show of appreciation and affection and spontaneity. What she does with it is up to her. It is a life lesson that is not solely for this one incident. She was showing me that I had ‘expectations’…which is judgement with a twist…and this puts my mind on a tight leash.

She is showing me what happens when I attempt to control my mind by having the leash too tight and not allow the personality of spirit to run and be. I have learned to allow Samantha to sniff and to mark her spots and enjoy her time with me as I learn to enjoy my time with her. This is the contrast between control and freedom. Everything begin in my mind and so I look at how self control creates this tug of war (and I use that word ‘war’ deliberately) between my intellect/ego and the loving emotions. Where there is control of any description there is no freedom and therefore there is denial of love (spirit).

Earlier in the year Samantha turned up one evening around 10 pm and in her mouth she had a stuffed teddy bear. Over the next month I was gifted with eight stuffed toys, a shoe, and a nail pouch (complete with copper nails in it) another shoe and several rubber balls. This became quite the conversation with my friends as we all witnessed this growing family of toys and gifts. The last one was pristine white with a large red heart framing the words “I love you” sewn into it. I burst out laughing and thought what a beautiful teacher she is for me. When you give love, you get it back in triplicate. This is life and it is choice.

we are what we eat...

2005-11-07T06:58:00.000-08:00

“Nihil in intellectu quod prius non fuit in sensu”
(there is nothing in the understanding that was not first in the senses)
Thomas Aquinas (1225-74)

“We are what we eat”.....Hypocrites.

I read these two quotes and have been mulling them over and thinking about food and how it relates to me. My love affair with food began early in my life. I love food. I love the way it can make me feel, I love selecting it, preparing it, working with herbs and spices, the colour, texture, taste, smell, sound and even shape of the food on the plate effects my senses. I could have been a chef, perhaps I was? The engagement of loved ones, emotionally, mentally through conversation and sharing of a meal is a total package. Friends add to the enhancement, on all levels, of a meal. It has been only in the last few years that I have enjoyed cooking for myself. I have always enjoyed preparing a meal for others because of my love for them. This was the impetus. So I am feeling my own growth when I have the same response to cooking just for me.

I really do enjoy the way I feel after my senses have been caressed and bathed in loving thoughts and loving emotions and the foods eaten. I have just had breakfast and I am thinking about my feeling state. The stimulus of my plate, the brightness of the yolk surrounded by firmed whiteness, nestled next to the redness of a tomato and the brilliance of the scooped out kiwi fruit. My delight at the whole process, from the selecting what I felt like my body wanted, (this is cellular communication) the cooking and then the eating carried over into my feelings and my emotional state. It is all very comfortable in an alive way. I felt my body responding to the food. It is immediate. Sex and food are sensual, appealing and stimulating to the senses. Not to cater to the loving emotions and the senses in life is about as mechanical and unexciting as clipping toe nails. Life becomes very one dimensional without the engagement of the loving emotions and the spirit senses. Did you know that the floor of the mouth has the same fractal pattern of muscles as the pelvic basin? That seems a strange thought to pop into my head! Wow, what is the relationship here? Both food and sex are directly involved in being/living on all levels....physically, emotionally and through the senses. They both give life, they both give pleasure and they both stimulate all the senses. We are chemical. And living and learning is fun. Bon apetite!

exploring old tapes of unworthiness

2005-11-05T06:35:00.000-08:00

In reading of the Laws of Seven (The Joy of Health, by Kathy Oddenino) in book study class we hit upon the concept/belief of ‘unworthiness’. I have just been re-reading the chapter to so I could find the sentence that set off this line of discussion but to no avail. It is funny how that happens. What came out of it were patterns that this belief was being expressed in past and present behaviour. These are a few of the things that came up as students contributed their thoughts and recognized patterns of behaviour and speech:

Whatever I do, it is never good enough…or never enough. (This is the victim)
Seeking approval. (Wanting to be saved…flipside of saviour)
I can never win for losing (this is ‘victim energy’)
The harder I work the poorer I seem to get. (so is this, victim energy)
I have to protect what I have (hording)
I can’t afford organic food, …… fill in the blank. (Poverty consciousness)

These are a few examples that came up and were related to thoughts, speech patterns and actions. What this really is about is the feeling of inadequacy which is living the poverty consciousness – the concept of “not enough” which is an example of “victim energy” – love and money are both physical expressions of this…or a level of this ‘lack mentality’. (these are all beautifully addressed in Kathy’s second book, “Bridges of Consciousness” for those of you curious enough to learn about your own patterns and how to change the old tapes.)

In looking at this, it really is about deprivation… The feeling of being deprived of internal love and therefore feeling inadequate of creating what we want. This is like leaning hard into a door with one hand and trying to open it with the other. We go nowhere. This is a very small example of what the study of spiritual philosophy can do for us to open our mind and to give us tools to change. It is all choice.

We are reflective beings. Think of yourself as a flashlight reflecting light and only you can do it through the opening of the mind. We cannot look for the light external to self. This is the pattern of the fearful mind living its poverty consciousness. It was a wonderful book study class with receptive students willing to examine and share themselves. I thank them for their sharing, and their questioning. It is a joy.

Thank you.

2005-11-04T09:33:00.000-08:00

This is a posting I placed on the message board at www.kathyoddenino.com and I post it now here on this blog site. Why? Because I have been watching the interviews of my fellow students (life mosaics) and have been marveling at the profundity of their words and open sharing of their growth that I want to share my thanks with them as well as Kathy.

When I entered this program that Kathy has designed, I had little idea how life changing it was going to be for me…or how I was going to emerge. I just knew that I was thirsty for this knowledge…I felt it as Truth. It made sense to me unlike anything else I had studied. The words in Kathy’s books reached deep within me and stirred my sleeping memories.

I wrote these few lines as I was beginning to awaken….

I have been a troglodyte
tramping the dark of caves
viewing the glow-worms and thinking
I had achieved enlightenment.

I immersed myself deeper in this program. The more I studied and began to find and deconstruct my negative beliefs that had been governing my life, as I grew in my awareness of self and my relationship to all, the freer I began to feel. I was beginning to awaken and emerge …And so I wrote:

Time was
The early morning cry of
Dawn
Awakening to streaks of light.

From behind the arras appears
Two pearls
Love’s bright translucence
Time is Now.
Air soft and light expanding.

As you can see, I moved from a cave to a beach. This is a good thing! The years rolled away and my awareness began to open to understanding. Understanding the design of us as a dual soul and spirit that give us life and how this becomes the design of our physical body. This is how I began to understand my mind, my loving emotions and my spirit senses. I began to marvel at the beauty of life and most of all, to feeling the internal power of love…. And so I wrote:

I am unfolding
Unfolding
I am learning
lessons of the heart.
Unfolded
I am Love. I am free.

I have been searching for freedom and love all my life. I now know that love is freedom and freedom is in understanding who I am….

Learning to be open to and accepting of the internal loving support I now feel and the loving support of friends has made a tremendous impact on me. This fossicking through my life to examine, to acknowledge, my fears has been an exciting journey.

This has been a gift that has been life changing for me.

This life, for me, is my lesson of the heart. I had always seen my physical family as my source of love.
With them all now physically gone, I am finding the knowledge of who I am as a trinity of consciousness and the love of my friends, my source of comfort.

I never thought it was possible to feel so ‘alive’ and …Basically, I did not think I could ever feel this good!

The more I learn about myself/life, the more aware I become of how powerful the power of love is. This is my truth.

… my friends…. I thank you for your support in my unfolding. My humble thanks.

Life is a Journey, not a destination

2005-10-26T14:39:00.000-07:00

I had been thinking about the phrase “Life is a journey, not a destination” and have been mulling over what it means to me.

The journey of life is open because we go through the cycle of expression of birth/life/death therefore there is no ‘end’ or ‘arrival point’/’destination’. This is a wonderful description of our evolution of our mind. Our mind has to expand otherwise we return at the same point that we left (died) and then repeat everything again (new life). As the mind expands we birth ourselves out of our ego-egg of fear and the intellect then recognizes the truth of self. This is the openness of the mind and our journey, or evolution of our mind into consciousness.

To remain inside our shell and spend endless lives revolving around in the limiting constraints of fear beliefs (often times these are totally unconscious and subconscious to the intellect)
Of:
right/wrong,
good/bad,
reward/punishment
and live in pain and suffering (thereby hanging ourselves on the cross)…this is so very sad and a perfect example of how we close our mind. It could also be a snap shot of where we are as a human species. (see previous postings on my views re...revenge cloaked as justice...as this intersects.

There is no way to blend the state of understanding and judgement for they are as oil and water. To have the focus, the intention, of ‘I am right…you are wrong’ is to have a destination in mind. It is an arrival point and thus, the mind slams shut.
Judgement closes the mind and the fear beliefs (ego) is/are in control.

The more we can explore our thoughts, emotions and feelings and find relationships to our language and activities/actions, the more we engage our mind; the further removed we become from control and judgement and ‘superficial ordinariness’ the more we evolve into becoming a Consciousness.

This, to me, reinforces the truth that Spirit is to be felt – not intellectualized. Absolute truth is Spirit which is felt and intuited and this governs what is said and how thoughts are expressed. Our journey is to evolve into consciousness and this then expands Consciousness.

All is connected...energy is real.

2005-10-21T08:04:00.000-07:00

USA as a country, changed after the world trade center towers debacle…which means the collective majority (who make up a country) demonstrated they were into punishment and revenge for this 9.11 attack and this has resulted in the warring behaviour (Middle Eastern wars). While this may, at first blush, ‘strengthen’ the culture/country, I feel all that really happened is that we conformed to what others were/are saying. Why? They had to have hit upon the similar note echoing within our minds. In this moment we stopped thinking for ourselves and resigned our voice to silence. Or did we? I was not silent. I spoke to others about the futility of war. In speaking to others I found that there was a sharp divide in their opinions. I felt the country was polarized which gives me hope that the positive energy will become the majority.

Our elected officials (elected by the majority… and of this statement, there seems to be some debate, which again indicates polarity within the electorate) are operating from their belief structure of fear base as shown in the actions taken. This is a religious war but then I feel all wars are religious wars, living from the belief of ‘divide and conquer’ as an example. In this conformity, we stop thinking and asking questions and thus the only strengthening is in our beliefs of right and wrong, of punishment and reward and assuaging our ‘need’ for revenge; and this reinforces mediocrity and negativity. This attitude divorces us further from our spiritual base. By hanging onto these old religious beliefs (staying on our cross of pain and punishment through refusal to accept our personal responsibility to think and to communicate in an open manner), we have thrust these negative warring beliefs between our intellect and our loving emotions. This is truly the ego being strengthened and separating itself from the spirit….it has separated and conquered and isolated itself into a web of mediocrity, of conformity, of sterile linear action steeped in negativity and conflict.

Majority rules and the majority at the moment, from my perspective, is an example of ‘man living his error’, in a way. Are these wars, examples of the ‘good renouncing evil’? This would fit given the beliefs behind the warring actions of retribution and it has shown up in the language of the ‘leaders’ such as “axis of evil”. This then returns me to the original statement of ‘all wars are religious wars’. In living such conflict (negative energy), it is no wonder earth and nature has to be affected and react. It is all a balancing act and when I say all I mean from our thoughts, all the way out through nature, earth and in to the universal system. I think of the energy of thoughts as wave-like. One does not have to look too far to see this reflected into nature, on earth and to feel its wobble. This imbalance has to echo wave-like into the universe and have an effect. The difference is, is the negative energy-wave in the universal system a tsunami or a little ripple? The opposite is also true. To send thoughts of love into the world, as the base emotion of every day living, has to add to the higher frequency, note of the harmony and peace of the universal system.

I was looking at a map of the world the other day and noted that the war in Iraq is on the same latitude as New Orleans where Hurricane Katrina and also Rita spun through. To me this is earth attempting to balance the energy. Locate the tropic of Cancer and there appears to be a 15 degree band going around the globe where a lot of earth changes are occurring. There are bombs being pounded into earth, there is tremendous negative energy of fear resulting in distrust, killing and expansion of this negativity. We cannot have this primitive behaviour being acted out and not have earth affected because all is energy and we are all interdependent upon each other. This is no different than what we are doing to our own physical home (earth) and our body. We are not separate. We are escalating the destruction of our health and now earth is in dire straits. Think of how we are (All Is) chemical and then the connection is very clear. We are dependent upon earth for our survival…food, water, air. We keep drawing up fluids from within earth (oil, gas and with it comes water) and I wonder if this is not having some sink hole like effect in parts of the earth. This is basic science.

Is ignorance really bliss?

2005-10-17T11:20:00.000-07:00

In www.lifesmosaics.com There are interviews of Kathy Oddenino’s students as they share their thoughts, emotions and feelings on their lives. These are totally unscripted and both the interviewer and interviewee got to hear the question and answers at the same time. This was certainly true for me. I heard the question, felt the thought and the emotions dance through the myriad of feelings as I responded with my words. All fell into alignment. I have had some interesting responses, both verbal and email, to what I had to say and they have been wonderfully positive.

I have been asked “how I learned all these fear beliefs in such a short time and would I give an example”. Well, here I go, Once more totally unscripted and off the top of my head.

Our fear beliefs are accumulative over lifetimes and really all can be traced back to the very early primitive symbols, superstitions, mythology and religion. (The core belief is the fear of separation from ‘God’ or separation from the physical through death. When we view ‘god’ as separate from us we cocoon ourselves within our ego shell of fear beliefs (our cosmic egg) and therefore our reality is then external and fear based.) An example of a primitive symbol is Jove…the ‘God’ of lightening which we have morphed and massaged into our present day fear of death/storms.

To have fear beliefs is to live in a negative mindset. An example of this is the old adage “Ignorance is bliss, ‘tis folly to be wise” …lets dissect this a little.

To me the whole thing is an oxymoron! All this does is reinforce our complacency of what we have been taught, what we think we know, and this effectively halts any searching for knowledge and understanding of self, of life. This is a prime example of the “I know it all” belief. If we ‘know it all,’ then we have effectively shut our minds to new information and we cannot change and grow. This means that we rely on an external ‘God’ to save us. This is a closed mind. It is stasis. This is conformity at it worst because we are conforming to the dictates of a closed mind. This is the ego fear beliefs at its prime. If we do not change the way we think, we cannot change anything about our life. Instead we continue to copy and repeat old tapes and patterns of speech and behaviours (and these influence our attitude). I can hear my mother’s voice as I sit here and write…”a man changed against his will, is of the same opinion still.” So basically, we have to want to change. Our intention to change and grow has to be in place before we can move ourselves.

The other part of the saying….”it is folly to be wise” has always been puzzlement to me. My thinking on this is that people are frightened to accept personal responsibility to change and growth and to step away from mediocrity and the stultifying conformity of fear beliefs. To accept personal responsibility to change is how we grow and ‘save’ ourselves from our ignorance. This is how we shift our consciousness from the external fear focus to the internal love focus. To maintain our ignorance is our folly. Wisdom is to acknowledge how little we do know and search out answers to ‘know thyself’ and find the relationship to all.

There is much, much more I could write on this subject but I just wanted to give a quick response. I hope this little bit has helped. Keep on questioning and thinking!

our 'human condition'

2005-10-13T07:04:00.000-07:00

I have been listening to the news around the world and seeing the results of 'natural disasters' occurring throughout the earth. I feel for the people experiencing such life changing, heart-wrenching experiences, whether they be brought on by 'natural' disasters such as earthquakes, volcanic eruptions, hurricanes, flooding and mudslides, to fires. Nothing happens by chance. There are no accidents. The universal law of cause and effect is in play at all times, so what is the 'cause' of all these destructive, earth, wind, water and firey events? What of our human condition?

Our human condition, at the moment, is fear based and this inhibits us from using our ethical values. This is the repeat of the difference between the philosophy of Jesus and the self-serving manipulation of the linear thinking of Paul. This linear fear based thinking is living from survival mentality and this has effectively shut down our humanity. In seeing this, the realization hits home, that nothing much has changed over the past couple of thousand years! If we had truly followed the teaching of love and equality of Jesus, I feel we would have a very different world now. Instead we hang onto past events and demand ‘justice’, which is just another way, perhaps more polite? of calling for revenge. We cannot move forward and evolve our ‘human condition’ when we are still in the resentment of past events. There are no loving emotions present to balance the intellect when the external scales of justice are used to mete out punishment. This is a very negative mindset. We have countries (made up of a lot of people who elected representives) who are operating from this negative fear base. We cannot have a war being acted out and have all this accummative negative energy building up without some sort of balancing trying to occur. The universe and Earth, as a consciousness, are trying desparately to rebalance and help us awaken to our negative fear beliefs. it is our negative beliefs that are accummulating and esculating.

It is the support of the earth and nature that shocks us into change, and then our health, or lack of, begins to register in our mind. They are all so interdependent upon each other. This brings my mind around to thinking about energy and how real it is and when I continue to think about energy as chemical, I have a greater understanding of cause and effect and that everything begins with thought. This is a very basic design. To have negative thinking is to have chaotic energy around and echoing out from the intellectual mind all the way into nature, earth and out to the universal system.

People have to be ‘awakened’ to what is happening within them and how this emanates external to them; from the food eaten, the quality of air breathed, and water consumed, the thoughts going on within them . What is the key that has to turn to help people wake up? It really comes down to accepting personal responsibility for what we are thinking, how we are acting and what attitude we are choosing to have. No-one does ‘it’ to us (whatever one sees ‘it’ as) we are the sole creators of our world. To sit in a puddle of self-pity and pray to an external God for ‘deliverance’ from pain, is not going to effect change in a positive way. I think of vibration and energy and in this scenario the vibration of victim/self pity energy is gross and fear based. The vibration of love, of ‘God Consciousness’ is too high a frequency therefore there is no communication. There is no connection. Sadly, this appears to be our human condition at the moment.

the magical mind

2005-10-04T07:56:00.000-07:00

I had read a book that described the brain as being ‘magical’ and so I thought about this and got excited at seeing another view of the mind and that it is open ended. The excitement was in recognizing that the only ‘end point’ in a thought is because that suited me at the time. I stopped the thought. I had not really followed the concept of an “open mind” and what this really means to me. I feel I have pulled a few pieces together and come up with something that I am unable to define and put a shape to it because it defies these ‘man-handling’.

In reading that the thinking mind is the ‘functional spirit’ last night, I see another key slot into place for me. I am feeling like I am on the verge of another ‘break through’ but am unable to quite grasp it yet. Perhaps it is not to be ‘grasped’ but rather allowed fermenting on its own time (not ignored) and by focusing on living the ethical values I can continue to expand my mind and emotional heart and thus allow a continual expansion of understanding to occur. The word ‘understanding’ is fluid. In keeping the thought of the mind being the functional spirit to the fore, I find that I am actually thinking or perhaps it is more that I am becoming aware of when I am not thinking. By not thinking I am denying my spirit and this is separation at its finest. I had not really looked at this before in quite this way. Then to look at not thinking as denial of spirit, the realization hits home that this is denying love. It is no wonder that we yearn for love for we are living from the memory of it and until we allow our mind to work we will continue to feel the separation. I am having a fresher relationship to the idea, well, it is the pattern of learning, the more I use my mind, the closer I get to the loving emotions and then the mind ‘discovers’ itself. This is the unity and the balance that the loving emotions supply to the intellect. This is our strength and from this the cycle continues to expand. This is the awakening to self. This is not a new concept to me. I am conscious of viewing it from a different point of reference. I look at the action of ‘awakening’ and this really is about change. The mind has to change from a ‘sleep state’ to an ‘awake’ state. This is using our full humanity. This is living our ethical values and thereby allowing spirit to be active in our life.

The more I ‘awaken’ to self the more my mind is active. The more I feed my mind, the more receptive I become to my spirit input. I am conscious of something I read awhile ago from Leonard Da Vince when he said something along the lines of “…I have awakened only to find the rest of the world asleep”. Not an exact quote but the essence is here. In a way, this is a little bit what I am feeling when I look around the globe at the reflection of fear being acted out in chaotic activity on every level. On the gross level of countries at war and seeing the pattern of conflicted minds being expressed all the way to the corporate level (fighting for money/profits), to the divorces, to bearing children and unthinkingly feeding (mother/child) toxic chemicals that the corporations have deemed ‘safe’ for consumption. This is how the tightening spin of negative energy penetrates every facet of our lives. Where does this negativity begin? It begins in the mind. Negative thoughts equals’ negative behaviour and this is the head water of pollution. I am seeing the effect of pollution (every kind on every level) in nature and on earth and these will have an effect on the universe. They are all part of ‘life’.

electricity and the mind

2005-09-30T11:00:00.000-07:00

Hello there, i have been away from here for a bit but not 'away' from thinking. I was reading my class notes from a Kathy Oddenino seminar (www.kathyoddenino.com) where she had said that the "mind is the functional spirit" and so i have been pondering this. To deny spirit is to maintain a closed mind. To open our mind and free it from the fetters of fear beliefs is to engage our spirit. I feel like a key has slotted into place for me and gently turned. This then makes the mind/spirit open ended. I find this a most exhilerating thought.

I had been reading a piece on the history of electricity and learned that it was a Dr. Franklin who discovered how to harness electricity and then Edison continued to expand on the discovery. What amazed me was how the church 'officials' of the time raled against this discovery and qualified their objections as seeing it (experienments with electricity) as "interferring with the 'Power of God" and tried their best to have the experienments stopped. Now what is this but reacting from an old superstition of the 'god of lightening "Jove"! We really are so very funny.

In thinking about electricity and the mind (magnetism is from the chemicals (hormones) produced in the limbic system by the loving emotions....put the mind and the loving emotions together and you get light)....Having to use the mind to 'enlighten'. I am seeing a similar pattern of resistence from the religious towards change only this time it is the change from the external perception to the internal perception. Basically it is shifting from viewing God as external to self to feeling our Spirit as indwelling. This is change of mind. I smile to myself as i once again recognize how we show ourselves in the physical first.

I hope you are all enjoying this shift in seasons. Even nature changes to help us change within our own minds. The pattern is in place.

The way of art

2005-09-11T16:23:00.000-07:00

I have just re-read Joseph Campbell's little book, "Inner reaches of outer space" and recalled that Thomas Aquinas was attributed with saying something like… ‘beautiful things are those that please when seen.’ This brings in the senses and the quality of same. The sense of taste is not just in the mouth, which is a physical sense, but more into the soul and the spirit which lends the qualitative grace to perceptions. This means to me that art in itself is an expression of a thought, and feeling and an emotion to elicit same in those viewing the ‘art’. The way of art is beauty to be interpreted through the qualitative senses. Because we are all unique in our experiences and live at different levels of conscious awareness, our responses are going to differ. I enjoy the beauty of hearing Kiri TeKanawa’s voice. To my senses, her voice is beauty. It gives me great pleasure. To another, her voice is anathema. Some people enjoy living with strong colours around then and find their pleasure in how it strikes their senses. This to me would be disturbing and lacking in harmony. It would feel chaotic. So I return to beauty being in the eye of the beholder which denotes our uniqueness and our level of consciousness. These are physical interpretations of art. What of our art of being? Our life is our art form to be lived and as Nietzsche wrote ‘art is life’s metaphysic exercise.' What does this mean? I take this to mean the ‘science of life’ where the quadrivium of self is lived as an art-form. Art can also mean the function of service or is it service to function? Function to service suggests living for a greater cause. Cause being service and cause or function being the living of our ethical values. This is truly an art-form of living/of being. This is the living (function) of love (service). So what of service to function? I do not feel they can be separated because one is a reflection of the other.

I think of the ways we all live and that in itself is an art-form and then this brings in beauty and perception again. To look internally and feel the love and know the truth of our design and function is to look externally and see the same beauty reflected back. This is the ‘eye of the beholder’. However I perceive myself is how I am going to perceive the world and my life and all the things in between. If I have an external view of life where everything is separated and distinct in its own compartments, then I have effectively divorced myself from the expanded senses and loving emotions that bring balance to my mind, to my life. How can there be beauty when there is limited love? How can one be touched or moved emotionally? There is a wonderful few lines written by Campbell that addresses this very thought. On page 94, “It is this elevation of mind and, with the mind, the eye, above desire and loathing, desire and fear, that brings the way of art and the artist into relation to that of the mystic. Without this transformation at once of consciousness and of vision, the portal of the mansion of art has not been entered”.

I return to Thomas Aquinas thoughts as he wrote: “Three things are needed for beauty, wholeness, harmony and radiance.” What is this but integration? Integration has to be enchantment of the heart and mind coming together in delight with the spirit senses. This is the harmony and the radiance…the wholeness of self. The art of self is expressed as the wonder of the freedom and the beauty of creation.

So...what do you think about this 'way of art'...??

been away for a while

2005-09-05T08:30:00.000-07:00

Hi there...I have been away from here for a while and it is all good. many other things have taken my time and energies.

I have been thinking about this blog site and what it is i wanted to 'achieve' with it. I quickly realized that it is multi leveled (as everything is!) and the over riding lesson for me was one of committment to openess and to sharing. This is osmething i have not always been comfortable in doing. I have not minded telling of things but have been reluctant to truly share my heart and mind without reservations and feeling of vulnerability. In this respect, i feel my goal has been met within my mind. This does not mean that i will not share again as i will continue to read and write and to think and express myself, without reservation.

In many ways this site has been an avenue to discover my 'voice' and to recognize that it is okay to share it. People will read and interpret from their level of consciousness and i have no control (nor do i want any!) over how others interpret my words. All i can do i be clear on my intent.

My intent is to share this knowledge of spiritual philosophy as i live my learning and growth into becoming a Consciousness. So on this note i will bid you adieu. If you feel so inspired to comment on anything i have written ..well, this is wonderful.

For those of you who are reading this, i suggest that you keep an eye out for a video stream coming onto www.kathyoddenino.com as she explains the Divine Idea. It will be uploaded within the next fortnight (this is 2 weeks). This is a wonderful snippet from the retreat we just had on 'The Spiritual Patterns of Change: Cooperation.

Good Day to you all.

philosophy in a nutshell

2005-08-24T10:29:00.000-07:00

I was asked today to quickly sum up spiritual philosophy and put it in a nutshell. Here is my response.
Spiritual philosophy is the progresive unfolding of Truth.

Energy. a snapshot in sharing.

2005-08-23T08:46:00.000-07:00

I was looking through other websites this morning and on reading one by an Australian chap, I was struck by the wording he used in speaking about a delay in his postings. Evidently there was a minor family illness and he was taking care of same and hence the delay in any spiritual writings. What struck me was how the separation occurred between spiritual writing and writing about life. I had this realization within me when I was on the beach the other week and wanting to share my thoughts but thinking they weren’t ‘spiritual’. I had been paddling along the edge of the ocean when it occurred to me that I was separating my thoughts and what I had been interpreting as ‘spiritual’. This was such an eye-opener to me that I stopped in my tracks and felt the full impact of the realization run through me. Sharing is an act of love. Love is the emotion of the soul and the unconditional love of spirit consciousness. My energy is mirrored in other people and it is through others that I can experience, acknowledge the value and love within self. This is the energy exchange with sharing my thoughts and feelings. We each have free choice to speak and to listen, and then to accept or deny the information. This was my realization and I felt the energy move within me as my mind shifted focus.

I have used the word ‘energy’, and indeed, it is a word that is bandied about with abandon and everyone interprets it from their level of awareness. Because of this I thought I would give a definition from the glossary of the book, The Journey Home. Our Evolving Consciousness. By Kathy Oddennino.

Energy – we are electromagnetic energy as electricity and magnetism that exists in three different force fields of physical energy, soul energy, and spirit energy. Energy by its very nature must move and change, and therefore as human energy we must move and change or decay will result. Energy never dies but it can change its form.

The electricity comes from the firing of the synapse in the brain. The magnetism comes from the chemicals of the loving emotions that are produced from the mind focus. Together they produce light. We are light beings. The more open our mind becomes, the more it expands, the greater the electricity generated. The more open, the more positive our thoughts are, the greater the volume of loving hormones (peptides/polypeptides etc) the greater our magnetism and the more light we shed, the greater our electromagnetic field/energy. It is such a simple equation. We are “magnificent in our complex simplicity” as Kathy once said in a seminar. This is our ‘heaven on earth’ to live with an open mind is to be happy and healthy.

I have touched on energy and integration of the mind which will lead into the power of neural depolarization as a healing therapy (check out healing stories at www.kathyoddenino.com) . All other ‘energy’ therapies/techniques balance the external energies of the body and this is the difference with NDP (neural depolarization). NDP balances the internal energies. I will address this further but in the meantime, explore the above mentioned website and enjoy your selves. I am off to mow the lawns.

in the quiet

2005-08-23T05:56:00.000-07:00

I found this poem i had written a few years ago and thought i would share it. I hope you enjoy it.
Kathy Oddenino has a four day retreat coming up on The spiritual Patterns of Change: Cooperation and i am so looking forward to it and being with other like minded people. All this to say that i may not be posting for a while. R.

IN THE QUIET

My light holds me, in silence -
touching me - moving me -caring of me.
gently speaking
to Be - as artist -
as poet
To live as Truth -
Heart and mind as one.

I ask:
And what of science
in this equation of
Healer and teacher? of the art of living
Love and truth and equality?

I hold still, in the silence -
The light illuminating.
science and art unite,
balance and creativity.
quality and quantity
harmonia and rhythm.
An internal philosophy of science
A sensory expression -
heart and mind as one and
the circle is complete.

I let it hold me, Knowing -
As I dream, so I create.
I have freedom to choose.

Raewyn.

I am a fractal pattern of the universe

2005-08-20T16:57:00.000-07:00

I am a fractal pattern of the universe (chemical) and that I am a consciousness at my core. I sustain myself as a physical body and as a consciousness. This means that I have to be more aware of the quality and the quantity of:

The foods I am eating,
The water I am drinking,
The air I am breathing… and
The thoughts I am having.

All these contribute to the whole of the balance of the chemicals within me, (these are the same chemicals that are in the universe, in earth and in nature) which in turn reflects into the health of my physical matter, and impacts my personality, behaviour, emotions, choice of words, tone and attitude towards self and this is then reflected out to others and in my actions. Reflected into life…where life, my life, becomes the art of living. Not just living, but living consciously. Well, this is really about learning to be and live as a consciousness. None of these…food, water and air…can be separated from chemicals as this is what they are comprised of…everything is comprised of chemicals. My body is chemical.

To sustain my self as a human being, I have to use my knowledge actively. To honour myself as a sensory being, as a spirit consciousness, is to honour earth and nature in the same manner. We are all one…or rather, All is One. One large consciousness made up of chemicals …all of which is sensory. I think of earth, wind, water and fire and see the direct correlation to humans. This is another view of the fractal pattern of the universe for me to relate to. One cannot live without the other.

Earth = body
Wind = breath
Water = liquids
Fire = passion.

The idea of an unlimited sensory universe is exciting to say the least. It makes sense to me that we are a fractal ( Fractal: an exact smaller pattern of a larger energy force. Glossary. P.316 Love, Truth & Perception, by Kathy Oddenino) pattern of the universe and that nothing is separate. All this is within me…within all. …this is how the mind and the universe become interchangeable…each reflects the other. These sensory responses are transmitted through physical matter… my body, as chemicals via the nervous system. These chemicals that are created from thought …are they loving or are they fear based?... This mind focus determines the chemicals produced…for all thought creates chemicals (amino acids and hormones) and this produces electromagnetic energy (light).

Everything begins with the mind and where it is focused determines the electricity of the intellect and the magnetism of the emotions. This again shows the inter-connective ness of all. Following this thought then, the universe is made up of electromagnetic energy. Earth has its own electromagnetic energy. Nature has its own electromagnetic energy. We have our own electromagnetic energy. All is interdependent on each other for health.

To become a consciousness involves commitment, communication, compassion and co-operation as a sensory being. To reach this degree of awareness, suggests to me that a level of personal responsibility is being lived and provides a harmony of supportive chemicals from earth, nature and internally from my thoughts and loving emotions. The clean food, clean air, clean water all work to support the mind and the loving emotions. All of these contribute to work in unity to provide a viable environment for the trinity of consciousness to expand and our physical body to be vital and healthy All are broken down into sensory responses which in turn are chemical actions within and without. This shows us as spiritual beings that are ‘enfolded in matter'.

every relationship begins within my mind.

2005-08-18T06:33:00.000-07:00

Every relationship begins within me. How I think determines the emotions and sensory responses I utilize when I interact with All (universe, earth, nature, family, friends, clients, Jane/Joe Public). I will not knowingly poison my body with dyes, exciter chemicals to harm my nervous system and that become hormonal disrupters if I can possibly help it. Then why would I offer the hummingbirds chemically dyed flavoured sugar water as food? Or feed the dog anything less that what I am eating in the way of quality? This hit home to me after watching a documentary on the birds. I was enthralled with the vast distances they covers on their migratory flight and the incredible energy it takes to move this small body at such high revolutions. I looked at what nature provided for sustenance and then I looked at what we were offering it to feed upon. I will not feed my body these dyes so why would I offer it to nature?

The chemical design of nature is complete and complimentary with all of nature…on every level; there is an interdependency and interpenetration of all eco-systems. To my mind, offering a distorted chemical substance to the hummingbird is not kind, and is disruptive and destructive to its evolution. Then I think that the destruction is not contained in the bird/species; what about all the flowers/nectar they feed on. Are they also being sprayed with chemicals that are destructive to nature? What are we doing? If people thought through their actions, they would offer the hummingbird plain sugar water rather than anything flavoured and coloured. Preferably, they would plant flowers as food for the hummingbirds and bees and ants etc. They would stop harming the eco-systems that are involved with flowers, for example. To have this little change of feeding birds, rather than what the store is offering, then by this one action change has begun, and eventually, perhaps, the supply and demand would effect change in the corporations and of course every step in between. It all begins with a change of thinking.

Everything is connected and every action has consequences as cause and effect. This is such a small example, yet it is a fractal of the overall picture of how we are poisoning the air, the earth, nature and ourselves through chemicals that are out of harmony with our signature, and that of the universe, earth and nature. Why are we so ignorant and arrogant? Why are we so blind to what we are doing? It has to be lack of knowledge! This is our fear run amok and causing all the chaos. If we saw the connection to All, how could we feed our pets, our friends, our family anything but clean food, clean water, and offer a clean environment (through not burning candles, spraying artificial scents, using toxic cleaners when something like vinegar and water will clean more effectively and cheaper and is kinder and more gentle on every level). This is but a small snapshot of the whole. I continue to hear Kathy Oddenino's words echo within my mind, "We are a fractal pattern of the universe." I continue to to think on this statement.

a beach trip

2005-08-15T12:05:00.000-07:00

I have just returned from Seabrook Island in SC. It was a good trip for me on all levels. As I walked towards the beach the first evening and greeted the Atlantic Ocean, it struck me that I had not been to the beach since I scattered Mum’s ashes on Hukawai Beach, near Opotiki, New Zealand. It was a funny sensation. I was wondering if I was going to have any waves of emotions roll over me or whether there was going to be any response at all. I felt flooded with an immediate sense of comfort at having the thought so my question was answered.

I had a reflective time. I felt Mum close. I felt the frolic within me as the waves moved around me, and it has been awhile since this lightness of being felt so spontaneous and filled every cell. I floated on my back and closed my eyes and went with the motion of the water. I was amazed at how much I sensed and how comfortable I was with it. To feel the rhythm of the ocean and the rhythms deep within me harmonizing…this was the sense of it, more than the actual. I felt cradled within and without. It was good.

The saltiness of the water burned my eyes somewhat so I did not linger in the water too long, preferring to walk and paddle and then return into the waves. I recalled all the miles I have beach walked by the Pacific and of the joy of the sensory experience. The Pacific has a very different feel to it than the Atlantic has for me…there is the salinity factor, a colour factor, a different smell and well, a total sensory experience that differentiates the two oceans for me. I used to feel like I had brought the feel of the Pacific Ocean back with me and the soft clean air seemed to add to the fullness of the experience. On returning from my walks on the various beaches, to sit and chat with Mum over a cup of tea, was a culminating of all sensory experiences. The volume, the depth of love that we could fit between us, as mother and daughter, shared over a cup of tea makes both the Atlantic and Pacific Oceans’ look and feel like a thimble sized drop of water.

It is this thought that accompanies me today. I think of my mother and the love is immediately felt with the thought. Sometimes tears spring forth with the thought, sometimes not, and it is all ok. I lived for the 5 or 6 weeks of the summer when we would be together. The sound of the Pacific Ocean was our constant companion; a rhythm we harmonized with as the constant expression of love between us was acknowledged and expanded. My mother is no longer physically with me. The love that is shared between us is constant and this is what unifies us and the Pacific and the Atlantic Oceans for me. With love, there are no limitations or separation. Love is the unifying factor. My memories are the triggers and the sensory response is the result. This is my experience.

in the quiet

2005-08-07T09:25:00.000-07:00

IN THE QUIET

My light holds me, in silence -
touching me - moving me -caring of me.
gently speaking
to Be - as artist -
as poet
To live as Truth -
Heart and mind as one.

I ask:
And what of science
in this equation of
Healer and teacher? of the art of living
Love and truth and equality?

I hold still, in the silence -
The light illuminating.
science and art unite,
balance and creativity.
quality and quantity
harmonia and rhythm.
An internal philosophy of science
A sensory expression -
heart and mind as one and
the circle is complete.

I let it hold me, Knowing -
As I dream, so I create.
I have freedom to choose.

death and change. A process

2005-08-05T08:02:00.000-07:00

Fear of loss, fear of the unknown. Fear of change. This has been our human ‘condition’. This is where I see the value of knowledge offer by Spiritual Philosophy! I have deaths of family members and close friends to help me examine my thoughts and language, attitude and behaviour around their deaths. I am struck at the contrast in all areas from the experience of the early deaths of my younger brother and my father, to the recent deaths of my mother and cousin, both of which I was intimately involved with. What made these intimate? Why use this word ‘intimate’? I feel it was because I was much more open to my own loving emotions and feeling supported within in a way that I did not feel with the other deaths. Because of this internal support and having the knowledge base of the spirit that I now have, I have been able to accept the leaving of the physical body more than before. The intimacy came with the sharing from my heart and the communicating of same with them.

I feel for me the key word that resounds in my mind is that of choice…not only for them but for me as well. This is the intimacy and the connection of us all. How can I focus on what I am ‘losing’ when I see that death is such a comfortable process, and I write that word….comfortable…with deliberation. There is no separation between life and death…to have one you have to have the other. This was my surprise at how I was feeling when I was watching my mother during her ‘shedding of her physical body’. The image of a bird flying and seeing the beauty of the freedom of flight was in my mind and I felt the freedom, the love of it. This image I now recognize as the symbol of spirit released from being earthbound. I realized that with the other deaths I had been focused on the mechanics of the movement of one wing and did not see the entirety of the wholeness of the bird in flight/freedom… which was my self-centeredness and lack of knowledge reflecting my fear. Without the knowledge, I can see why death has been such a mystery and therefore fearful.

“When you have identified yourself with the consciousness, the body drops off. Nothing can happen to you. You are ready to be grateful to the body and to love it for having brought you to this realization, but it is only the vehicle.” Joseph Campbell
This sentence resonates with me and my feeling of dual soul and spirit indwelling neatly fit into this. I am so very grateful for the knowledge that I have as I feel it allowed me to appreciate more fully, the beautiful experience of my mother’s death, that I now recognize it to be. To feel the comfort of love, and the support of parallel lives and be conscious of them, and to be open to feeling/sensing them has made all the difference to me. I am not saying that it is an easy process to going through the death of a loved one. I am saying, for me, this knowledge of our journey/our design/our cycle of expression helped me tremendously.

I mentioned ‘choice’. This is the choice the soul…the freedom of choice. I think of Mum’s death and see how clearly she used her freedom of choice, her will and her intention. Knowing this, I can view her death as her life. I also know within myself and acknowledge to myself, that the timing was right on cue for both of us. My sense is that mum chose to stay an extra year as a way to help me. I recognize in hindsight that this is what she did and it fills me with a deep love and appreciation. I had to reach a point where I could truly benefit from the emotional shock of her physical leaving and have enough knowledge and be open enough to allow the internal loving support to be present. My choice now is to fully embrace the loving emotions that her death provided within me which means opening to my freedom of will, intention and choice and turning lose of the fear of death, of the fear of change and of the control of my ego and allow the love to dissolve all fear. This is my responsibility and a choice I am intent and willing to make. I have a lot of knowledge and because of it; the entire ‘event’ was so very different from other experiences. Knowledge dispels fear; knowledge of the dual soul and spirit and how the continuing cycle of birth/life/death works. This is where the symbolic ‘dust thou art, to dust returnth’ reference comes in. With the knowledge that we are chemical and therefore a part of everything and that we will return. Knowing that we are a chemical consciousness, it is an easy relationship to understand the symbolism of the words. Knowledge is using the mind, with the loving emotions and the spirit senses with an understanding of life as a cycle of expression. This is my substance and my sustenance, my solace. It is the contrast between internal focus and feeling the connection to all and external fear focus and living the separation of all. I feel this is where the fear in an ‘after-life’ comes into play, when there is no understanding of who we are and of the nature of the soul and spirit…of the connection to all.

sound is caused by motion

2005-08-03T09:03:00.000-07:00

I began to think about sound and how it is caused by motion. This is a sound wave that strikes our physical ear. What of when the mind moves? The pattern is the same. Movement creates sound. Sound waves go into the universal system and create their own sound. Is this the music of the spheres? For the mind to move, there has to a willingness to be open set in place for movement to happen. The more open the faster it (mind) moves the greater the sound waves produced, the higher the vibration, the further they travel. All is chemical/ sensory.

This is about ‘Knowing Thyself’ through intuition rather than the intellect. Spirit Consciousness is both sustaining and creative force within the universe right down to the most primal animal (We differ in that we have a consciousness of who we are). It is the life-force that flows through our nervous system as chemical light-flow and this is vibrational. Our very existence on earth is dependent upon this, just as our existence is dependent upon the light source of the sun’s rays. Nature is supported and nourished as we are and as earth is nourished and renewed from the sun, so to are we supported and nourished by the divine light of spirit. It is the life of the mind, the body, the Consciousness. We are a small part of the whole in relationship to Spirit Consciousness. There is not one thing we could do … we could not BE … without spirit consciousness which is the heart-atom within us. Thy Will be done as I surrender to love. This is a non-intellectual state for I cannot find truth within the intellect. To surrender to love is almost like the process of dying. I feel this takes lifetime after lifetime after lifetime to be internally ‘born’ – to awaken to spirit consciousness – to the reality of truth. Until we get out of the intellect (birth self through knowledge) we are impotent within the ego shell of ignorance and fears (illusions) providing the limitations.

our mind as universal medium

2005-08-03T06:59:00.000-07:00

In reading Hegel, (Phenomenology of Spirit)I am reminded of the power of the mind and of thinking. I really respond to the idea of our mind being our universal medium… not just the intellect but the entire component so us….as a consciousness…the sensory response …or sense certainty can only be pure thought/consciousness when there are no filters, just a continual expansion… Where ‘understanding’ is continually stretched; and then I ask, What is understanding? I am unable to understand unless I have engaged my loving emotions with my spirit senses to balance the mind and even this is not a ‘destination’ but ever expanding. Understanding is making relationships. Until then I am awakening to being aware of self and then expanding awareness into being/understanding…awakening to my mind….or rather it is my mind awakening to itself. The pattern continues.

myths and symbols as related to my life

2005-08-02T05:10:00.000-07:00

How have myths and symbols, that I am aware of, played out in my life?

The first thing that comes to mind is religious teachings of having ‘faith’ and because of this ‘faith’, I will be saved and ‘be with God’. Already I see several things that I have conformed to. The main things are ‘fear of separation from an external God’, blind faith in being saved if I conform. The symbol of these is church attendance, prayer and conformity to ‘be good’ and to ‘do good works’. This I can see where I have done this and been seduced by the feeling of helping others. This is perhaps where the saviour feelings come in both as an external seduction of helping (controlling) others because ‘I–know-it-all’ and have ‘judged’ others as needing my help (I can see how this is acting out the reflection of ego as God-like-qualities and the judgement/control) and on the other hand there has been the internal feeling of lending a helping hand…being co-operative and working for the good of all that has always felt good to me, and this ‘saved’ me. The difference is that I am now more conscious of not depriving people of their lessons. To do so really is major interference in their lives and soul journey and it makes my life quite burdensome and slowing to our growth. I can see clearly how I have done this, in my attempt to ‘feel good’ and to exercise my ego muscle. To do this I first have to judge, interfere with control or manipulation or seduction…all of this internally within me first as this is what my fears (ego) are doing to me and then I am reflecting this outward to others. This is how I keep the ego intact.

I have a sense that what is going on within my dual soul mind and emotions is what community living is about for me. I have an internal ‘community’ that is working to be open and co-operative and communicative. This says more about me at the moment rather than where I have been. I have lived with the myth of being saved/doing the saving. Unlike the community of the religious that have controlled by the fear of being judged/separated from an external God and this is where I see the ‘authority’ as giving away my power, and therefore 'neeed to be saved'. This is inequality. I speak of religious community and I see myself as having been this community. I am conscious of the duality. It is also denying of my thinking mind and loving emotions. The myth (fear) got in the way.

I have to ask myself “what is faith”? In religious context, it is blind faith and this, I feel, is a belief based on authority. Authority suggests inequality to me. Yet faith is also an ethical value. This is where the focus of the mind comes into play and what changes the mind focus? Knowledge. I think of the role my parents have played in my life and they were the ‘authorities’ in my early life and structured, disciplined and helped teach me organization…all the things I required to set in place the male mind so I could continue on my path of integration with the female loving emotions from a solid foundation. I had faith in them. I never felt unloved or unequal. Unequal within myself yes and this means that I must have seen them as unequal because I was reflecting my own stuff. This is where love comes into the picture. Am I comparing the role my parents played as authority in that they restructured me or patterned me and the ‘authority of religion’? I felt love from my parents and judgement (fear) from the church (god)although I could not have identified it as such at the time. The authority of religion felt discordant to me even as a child and the authority of my parents never did. The confusion I felt was with the ‘authority’ attributed to the minister and at the same time feeling drawn to the spiritual and feeling the conflict within between freedom and conformity.

This discord I was feeling carried on for a lot of years. In hindsight I see that I massaged the myths and symbol of prayer over into meditation and eastern philosophy to try to understand the ‘mysteries of life’. Without true knowledge and the tools it gives, I just held onto my deeply held beliefs (unconsciously). The ‘mysteries of life’ was what the ‘faith’ was based on. This makes the ‘faith’ blind. Blind to what? Blind to my mind and loving emotions. If my mind was open to seeing the inconsistencies then it would question. When my mind asks ‘why’ then it has to be opened to hear the answer. If I questioned then I was not conforming. I was attempting, in an infantile way, to unfold the mystery by trying to read about the eastern philosophies. How to accept the divine within and find/live a/the relationship and still hang onto religious beliefs? I tried to flatly deny religion/Christianity. I did not have the tools to examine the beliefs…to examine how I was thinking, what emotions were I using and how and why was I feeling ‘discordant’? This shows me how separated or out of touch within I was at the time. So really, I just spun my wheels so as to speak. I did accept faith in myself as a person but wonder if I was not ‘camouflaging’ it as strength and courage? Did I even think about this? No. I just accepted, had faith in myself. In hindsight I see that it was more a belief in my physical being rather than a balanced view of self, and although I had an ‘awareness’ of ‘more-than-the-physical’ I was still viewing it as external to me.

I found that while the eastern philosophy appealed more than the western Christianity did, inequality was still at the base and nothing I read assuaged the discord within me. How could I validate my human experiences when I stilled carried within me a concept of sin…even when I denied it? Or to have the concept of ‘salvation’ which to my mind, carries an expectation/judgement with it? By having this as an expectation of something to come….then I am not living in the moment but continually living in a waiting/stasis mode. I see how this concept was alive and well in my beliefs/attitudes of right and wrong, of good and bad, and these lead to judgement. These impact the objectivity of the mind and I am left with flawed reasoning. How could it not be, as even the language, the wordage ‘flawed’ suggested judgement. To have this concept of good/bad, right/wrong suggests that I have to be ‘purified’ in someway…this is where church attendance and prayer would come in, and the ‘need to do good’. And I had used the church and ‘doing good/saving’ as a way to relate to God!

When my brother drowned, I felt betrayed so in my rage and hurt, denied any such thing as ‘God’ and refused to attend another service, or enter another church. This, I now see, exacerbated my sense of separation and intensified my fears. On the other hand, I can see how I had to reach this rage to break from the teachings so as to be able at some point to examine to understand…to unravel the ‘mysteries of life’ to give it the meaning I sensed was there but had been blind to the knowledge. So I have the advantage of going back, with tools with which to examine my life and see how I have played out the myths and symbols and the duality of them all.

what does 'transcendence' mean?

2005-08-01T05:01:00.000-07:00

What does ‘transcendence” mean to me and how and why does it apply?

Transcendence means to ‘go beyond all categories’ which I identify as turning loose of all roles and identities…basically all fears…as these are the things that contain, restrict and categorize. What does the categorizing but the male mind. The immature male mind is the ego which is the ‘container’, controller and restrictor. To ‘transcend’ this limited thinking of the immature male mind is to live the trinity of freedom of will, intention and choice. This is then living with an objective mind. To have an objective mind is to be without fear because it can only be objective when the trinity of freedoms are being used. To use the freedom of choice, I must have the freedom of intent and of will in place. What makes a mind objective? Balance. This can only be by using the loving emotions and the spirit senses. How to get to these? I have to engage the cycle of change! Internal commitment .Communication. Compassion. Co-operation. I find this interesting to put it down like this. Mainly because I had not really gone through what having an objective mind means.

As Joseph Campbell asks, …”what does ‘go beyond’ mean? He goes on to say that “God is Transcendent”. Therefore ‘God is beyond’…beyond what? This is my question. Perhaps I could ask myself, ‘What is God?” my immediate response is ‘love’…and what is love in the final analysis but chemical response to thought, emotions and feeling. This brings ‘god’ back within the quadrivium of self (dual mind, loving emotions, spirit senses enfolded into matter) and of universe (air), the earth (minerals) nature (food and water) for all is unified through chemicals and interdependent upon each other. To reach a ‘sacred space’ beyond all fear is to be living from the purity of truth with absolute freedom. This to me, is the meaning of ‘transcendence’ which is integration of my mind and my loving emotions with my spirit senses. Transcendence then could be called ‘consciousness’. How to get to this state? This leads me into defining knowledge. What is knowledge but living the truth of our design as a quadrivium with consciousness…this returns me to the objective mind, subjective emotions and the qualitative senses.

To have an objective mind is to be without fear because it can only be objective when the Freedoms (choice, will, intention of the female loving emotions within the male consciousness) are being used. To use the freedom of choice, I must have the freedom of intent and of will in place. What makes a mind objective? Balance. This can only be by using the loving emotions and the spirit senses. How to get to these? I have to engage the cycle of change! Internal commitment .Communication. Compassion. Co-operation.

‘Transcendence’ then is finding and feeling the truth of us as a human being. I feel we spend a lot of time and effort to ‘defend’ our fear beliefs (unconsciously) and as we do this, then truth becomes the ‘enemy’ or something to be ‘battled against’ which when put like this, sounds ludicrous. I can see my behaviour and how I have held fast to fears rather than give them up for truth. How to reach a state of transcendence and hold onto fear beliefs? It cannot be done…perhaps this is exactly where the ego-spirit tug of war goes on. When intellectually we know (relative) that truth is what we want and at the same time, feel the unwillingness to turn lose of the beliefs. This is how we lie to ourselves because we are not balancing our minds with the loving emotions or the spirit senses. The only way is to turn inwards to find truth and therefore ‘transcend’ to be truth and love and live equality. This is what a lot of the myths have been attempting to say, to gain, to ‘go beyond’ such as the Crusades and the hunt for the Holy Grail…or in western religious lore, the ‘heaven/hell’ concept for example. It is also a beautiful example of externalizing and failing to appreciate the beauty of who we are…of our internal design.

Throughout history we have externalized everything and projected and attempted to make physical through myths and symbols and religion. We have lived our untruth, our fear and our inequality. Our history shows our dual soul journey as we have lived this. ‘Transcendence’ – to achieve this, there must first be a commitment to change as an internal preparedness to be set in place. I feel that once the internal commitment is soundly ‘in place’, then the internal or cyclic communication can begin. This balances the mind and allows a deeper spiraling into spirit energy to occur.

we are male, female, spirit within.

2005-07-30T08:23:00.000-07:00

We are all male and female and spirit within us. We (humans) all have a mind. We all have loving emotions and we all have senses. This is the trinity of us. We are all equal in our design. This is translated/reflects into gender as male and as female. Our physical design is complementary. This seems so very simple to just write those lines and to feel the truth of the words. My past behaviour has been to resist using these energies in a balanced way,… so until I understood who I was, I could not balance these energies within. Until I understood who I am, I did not recognize that I was both male and female energy. The more I understand about myself, my design, and can recognize and accept these male and female energies within me, the greater the balance. The more comfort I have and the easier it become to accept the equality of a male/female relationship.

It is no wonder to me why I could not sustain a committed heterosexual relationship. I was resistant to using the loving emotions and my mind as an open sense. This returns me to the ‘fear of love’…of seeing ‘love = marriage = control =trapped.’ My resistance came from the fear beliefs that cluttered and clogged and left me kicking against the traces in an angry rebellious manner. The worst sting was because I did not know where the anger and rebellion was stemming from. I did not even know I was angry! I just looked outside of myself and railed against the inequality I saw around me. Not knowing at the time that this was exactly what was going on inside me. The ego hanging onto/protecting itself and resisting the equality of the female loving emotions and this being the ‘marriage’ of the male and female energies within which would result in freedom.

I feel I have a good grasp on what I have done and how I have learned that love is freedom. This is about the complimenting rather than the competition... As I open my mind to the loving emotions and to the truth of who I am, my senses expand and consciousness begins to be…I begin to become as a Consciousness and actively living and Being…love, truth and equality. To have one is to have them all.
I find I am beginning to live a lot more compassion …not only towards myself but towards others as we all create our life from our level of consciousness, to learn and to evolve. I look around me with this in mind. I think of what I have created so I could learn and see how I have evolved as I learn and heal and am grateful. I feel I have been given a gift from both Mum and Harold in their sharing of their experiences and what they had learned through their lives and through their dying process. My heart opens as I begin to understand how brilliant we all are in what we create for ourselves. How tailored our experiences are, is quite something to see. These gentle people have contributed greatly to helping me connect the dots of my life and to be able to look at their lives/my life with appreciation.

To open my mind to knowledge is to allow my mind to breathe deeply and the more I dig into my beliefs, the more my level of trust increases…not only in myself but in others as well. This is spilling out into my behaviour and attitude with my friends. The more I care and share with them the more my level of trust and faith rises, the greater my equality, love and truth anchours into being who I am.

I have to look back to see, not to judge

2005-07-29T06:18:00.000-07:00

I had to look back into my life to see, not to judge, the experiences I had created to learn my lesson of the heart. I had to move from awareness of lessons to understanding. I had to communicate with myself first, then with family and friends. I was good at using language, like an epee or foil, to keep others from getting close and knowing me; because I subconsciously (was I even this aware?) thought that if they found out who I was, then they would judge me and then reject and leave me, so I did it first. I see clearly how I perpetuated the sense of loss and grief and aloneness by these actions and in doing so, I reinforced the fear beliefs/ego shell and intensified my anger and this controlled me on every level. I reflected this control to others. This was my learning pattern of opposites. I am continuing to learn the lesson of freedom.

Experiencing the deaths of my family added to my anger and as a result, the greater the sense of loss grew within my mind. This increased my internal isolation and I withdrew from true communication, which increased my anger as my fears intensified, particularly the fear of being alone. I talked, yes. But I was not communicating.

Spiritual Philosophy has provided me the tools to bridge this gap. I am so very grateful for this knowledge/awakening to love and understanding; to the truth of becoming human.

I have been blessed by my family and friends helping me with my opening of heart and mind. I look at the ebb and flow of people in my life who have added to my tapestry of learning, and the one thing that stands out in bright colours is how spiritual philosophy has eased the anguish within me through relationship/knowledge. Communication is the key to shifting from fear, inequality and untruth. By not sharing my thoughts i deny the equality/love and therefore truth within myself and this becomes reflected to my family and friends and otheres i come in contact with. There is no integrity where there is concealment The information became knowledge when I began to live it/relate it, and this showed up in my willingness to share my experiences with family and friends.

What stands out like a light beacon in the dark is that as I shifted from fear to more loving thoughts and emotions, in living this, I found my life of friends and family becoming richer and more intimate as I became more truthful and open in my sharing of my thoughts and the willingness to become ‘vulnerable’ in showing my emotional side. The level of kindness towards self increased with my degree of understanding and this rolled outwards, like ripples in a pond, towards every facet of life in incremental waves of appreciation for what life is and the inter-relationship and interdependency between All that is. This thought continues in ever increasing and expansive spirals as I learn to stretch my mind and allow my mind to flow with it. The excitement for me is that I feel I am just at the beginning of life and living and what it means. I am just beginning to really live and know that nothing is separated. I begin to live the first trinity of spiritual ethical values of love, truth and equality. These are the corner stone upon which everything else is supported.

who am i? a brief over view

2005-07-28T05:54:00.000-07:00

Hi there, I just wanted to introduce myself to all. My name is Raewyn (it means sun and Wind) and i am originally from the north island of New Zealand. I have done a good deal of traveling around the world over the years and i feel i have finally 'landed' here in North Carolina, USA. I am putting down my roots into this community of choice.

My traveling has been the result of me attempting to assuage the sense of 'something missing' and thought i could find the answers to life external to self. My younger brother's death was my catalyst to change, to searching for answers. I read everything i could find (almost) to provide the answers. I looked at various religions, and philosophies and managed to take something for all and added into the mish-mash of beliefs.

It was not until i read Kathy Oddenino's first book, 'The Joy of Health; A spiritual concept of integration and the practicalities of living' in 1990, that i felt the truth of her message. (www.kathyoddenino.com there is a great deal on this book at the moment from her web site) I practically inhaled the words, and the thought echoed through my mind....this is truth! I am not alone...and so began my studying to 'know thyself'.

I began to find solace in the teaching as i learned to look for the relationship of all and in the knowledge and understanding, i found my healing. I have found a comfort in understanding the deaths of my immediate family and this knowledge has been my solace. Having it based in science (i come from a science background) added credence to my understanding of the work. kathy's message stands on its own, in the purity of truth. It was my ego that 'demanded' to have all backed up scientifically! Feeling the words on a sensory level as truth was the 'clincher' for me. One cannot deny truth when it is felt at such a deep level.

Spiritual philosophy, as taught by Kathy Oddenino, has given me the tools with which to understand my life experiences, and why i created same, and where i am going. To learn in life from love rather than fear is a shift in consciousness. To learn that we are a quadrivium of energy, inseparable from All that IS, makes me more conscious of my thoughts, my language, my actions and to treat ALL with respect and love has become my objective in my shift in consciousness. I am learning to live my love and truth as a dual soul and spirit, enfolded in matter (physical body) every second of the day. I am learning to live as a consciousness.
Why Spiritual Philosophy? It gives answers that make sense and the truth resonates deep within me.

I have my own practice doing Neural Depolarization and Spiritual counselling/teaching/nutrition to help clients learn to heal themselves and shift their consciousness from fear to love. I have a study group twice a month where we learn to identify our own soul patterns and lessons, identify relationships and change the way we think from a closed mind of fear to an open mind of love.

Healing is approached from an integrative aspect in learning of our four-dimensional energy fields. From this approach, our personal power can be realized and can create what we want in life.

Raewyn

soul talk. a poem

2005-07-28T05:38:00.000-07:00

My body vibrates and moves
In tune and tone to
Music it alone hears.
It breathes deep and quietly
heals.

I am reminded of
Ancient angers
That separated me from
The harmony and rhythm
Of quiet breathing.

Beginning as a canker
In my nerves and rising up.
Numbing my senses and separating me
From the grounding of mother
Earth, as the anger separated me
Within my mind
From loving embrace of soul.

What uncried emotions,
What unspoken words fell dormant upon my tongue…
thickened my
Blood and stifled my nerves…
narrowed my arteries and constricted my
breath? I ask my soul.

“Go back…go back …go back
to the ancient angers
And feel them. Do not be afraid. Release
The unshed tears and clotted blood.

Allow it to be. The dam is breached.
Encourage the spent
Nerves to reach for, and feel,
the connection to earth and ethers.
Trust in love and your senses. Feel your freedom
In the truth of you”.

My body vibrates and moves
In feeling-tones
Of deep and abiding rhythm.
I breathe deep and quietly heal.

Raewyn.

why spiritual philosophy...a brief view

2005-07-27T09:01:00.000-07:00

Spiritual Philosophy has changed my life dramatically. It has assuaged the sense of ‘something missing’ from my life. That feels like a large statement but a true one. I had been looking externally to find this ‘something’ and used traveling as my method of looking. Then I combined traveling with formal studies and still I found that I was still ‘missing’. I actually had thought it was home and family that I was missing and immediately denied that I was home sick. It was a clue though. Home and family represent love and comfort, the soft air of the country to add to the nurturing I felt when there. Irony abounds as this is what I was looking for internally…to return home to love. This is the freedom and balance that have been so important to me. It has been clear that this is what I have been seeking, and I reflected this externally into physical activities, from sporting activities and remaining single and traveling. These two states of being (freedom and balance) continue to excite me, especially now knowing the difference between internal and external; I have come to recognize that, internally, to have one, I have the other. This is the road ‘home’ for me.

Freedom is the freedom of the mind from the restriction of fear beliefs and this then allows the intellect to balance with the loving emotions. it is freedom from the fear of the loving emotions. This provides the unfolding to freely think without restrictions. This continues to unfold which reinforces again that there is no arrival point, but rather a continual expansion into greater levels of love, of thinking and of sensing and that they all work in unison and understanding. The excitement is in knowing that we are energy. All (universe, earth, nature, human) is energy. All is connected. Energy is real. Thoughts are energy and therefore can be sensed. Emotions can be felt as magnetism. Learning that we are a chemical consciousness and sensory was like a key turning and a lot of things fell into place and the connection to everything came much clearer to me.

The state I was in prior to studying Spiritual Philosophy was one of internal separation, and this was the core of my anger, which I controlled (and it controlled me). Basically I had no ‘tools’ with which to understand my life. My early religious teaching did not add to my understanding of life because I had no way to relate it. I was fortunate to have parents who believed in living the golden rule of “do unto others” and that ‘God is love’. Unfortunately, this was all based on the religious philosophy which I interpreted as an external God who was separate from me, therefore I could not connect to ‘self’. This acerbated the feeling of “less than’‘and from this sprung the sense of judgement/rejection/abandonment’ within me. Spiritual Philosophy has changed this. It has given me a sound basis from which to understand myself, therefore I now have greater tools with which to live by. It has made sense of life; my life. Until I knew what the unconscious and subconscious was in relationship to me and the definition of my soul and spirit was, I really could not make head nor tail of life. It makes sense to see that in my unconscious and subconscious fears, I was judging myself, and rejecting my own loving soul and spirit. This left me feeling abandoned and separated from my internal Spirit. It left me in a depressed state. The first thing I had to do was ‘save’ myself by understanding who I am and why and how I came to be the person I now am.

connecting a few dots of health and choices

2005-07-27T08:55:00.000-07:00

The more I read and look and listen to what is going on in our world the more urgency I feel. We are poisoning the earth with toxic chemical, we are poisoning
our water, we are poisoning the air we breathe and we are poisoning our minds through fear. This is not a new thought. It has been addressed by many, from
many perspectives. Kathy Oddenino has been speaking, writing, teaching that we are a chemical consciousness and how all is related and addressed these
issues in her 8 books, the first of which, The Joy of Health. A spiritual concept of integration and the practicalities of living; has been available since
’89. And I wonder how many took it to heart and implemented change in their lives. Did people understand her message? Rachael Carson’s book “Silent
Spring” came out in the early 60’s, was a tremendous wake up call to how earth and nature are struggling to survive under our onslaught of non-thinking,
ignorant, self-serving greed and the direct relationship of destruction of nature to the destruction of our health. The information is available, not just in books
and science papers but films such as ‘Super size me” are in the public view. The information is available. We have to connect the dots.
I look at our health in this country. There is far more cancer, neurological diseases and children (plus animals) being born with mutations now than there ever
has been. Obesity has become epidemic, and with it comes a plethora of health issues. Why? I wonder if people think to ask this simple question. Perhaps it is
not the question but the lack of motivation to change that is the issue? This has to be the answer as I cannot imagine that people would be deliberately eating
something that is detrimental to their health? For example, if people eating ‘Splenda’ (sucralose), would do some research they would find that it is a
chlorocarbon which has long been know to “…cause organ, genetic and reproductive damage, as well as causing swelling of the liver and kidneys. Sucralose is
NOT found as a natural compound in nature because no sugar molecule is compounded with chlorine anywhere in nature.” (an excerpt from chemical central)
So why do we use it? This is a small example of how our complacency, our unthinking mind, and greed all play together to poison all.

Would we continue to poison the land, the air, the water, our mind, our body if we understood that we are spiritual beings learning to be human? That we are a
quadrivium of energy (a dual soul of mind and emotion, indwelling spirit enfolded into matter). Would we continue to poison the land and water and air if we
saw a direct relationship to us and our health and how interdependent we are with all? My heart hurts when I see the destruction that is occurring around me.
Our actions are a direct response to our thoughts. If we are having negative thoughts and conflict within our minds then we will perceive conflict external to us
and act on it. Look at the conflicts going on around the world (macro view), to the states/communities (meso view) and all the way to the mind (micro view)
and domestic hostilities, all begin within each of us and echo waves of energy external to us. Our choice is fear or love. It is this simple. How can we be loving
and be at war? These two states cannot co-exist. It is either one or the other.

It is a challenge to find organically (Non GMO/GE, Non radiated, pesticide/herbicide/fungicide free) fruits and vegetables to eat these days. I may find them
available but then I ask, ‘what has the fruit and vegetables been eating?” Does the soil have the chemical integrity that nature provides or is it too depleted to
provide the life-giving minerals we all require for health? Nothing can be separated because everything is related; and yet we are doing our best to separate
ourselves from the universe, earth and nature and thus our health, through chemicals that are not compatible with the atomic signature of our chemical design.

This is what I have been learning. The more I study with the institute of Metaphysical Studies, the more I learn to ‘Know Thyself’…this is what my studying
has let me see and how it all connects. The time for complacency is over. It is time to step up to the plate and be active in change as we shift our consciousness
from that of a closed mind of fear to open our mind to our internal love. This is always our choice; to keep a closed mind and heart of fear, or open our mind and heart to love. This is our freedom. Health and happiness are our natural state of being.

We have to learn to be personally responsible to love ourselves so that we can take care of what we feed our minds, know what we are thinking, how we are
feeling and what emotions are we using. They all are so inter-related to the food we are eating, the air we are breathing, and the water we are drinking that they
cannot be separated. All is chemical and have a direct effect on the health of our cells and within the nerves; the hormones, amino acids and minerals we are
using. All of this comes down to choices we make, whether we make them consciously or unconsciously, they are still ours. We have to own our thoughts, our
language and our actions.

To learn from Kathy, is a beautiful gift of love I give myself. To hold onto this knowledge and not share it with others is, to my mind, refusing to live the
learning. Love is expansive, the more we share from our heart, the greater the change that can be effected.